Monday, May 20, 2013

Girl scout rule

This is Amos he lives at pather ridge here in florida and I can't wait to meet him.
This pic really has nothing to do with my post tonight,
I just think he is a sexy guy!


Tonight I'm going to be short and sweet.


There is a rule in the Girl Scouts that I have always found to be important.
It goes along with the golden rule for me, 
you know;
Do unto others as you would have others do unto you.
The girl scouts say to leave a space 
cleaner and better than when you found it.
this includes actual buildings and nature.


I love that concept.
To care whether someone else does or not.
When I was younger I really didn't understand that concept.
Now though,
through my path of spirituality and my
practice of Reiki and the 5 principles
I really understand the deep understanding of leaving a thing to the best of your
ability better than when you found it.
 
 
This means relationships too.
Too many people use their painful past as a reason to treat others 
in an unkind fashion.
I have come a very long way from the immature girl that used a 
sharp tongue and fists to communicate my displeasure with perceived enemies.


One of the greatest gifts of a daily Reiki practice is to
reach deep inside and make a choice to leave
someone's heart better than you found it.
To me this means my family, friends, and fellow humans.
Each time I feel the need to get angry or begin to feel frustrated
I do my best to find the place within me that can honor the other person.
Because by honoring the other person I am really
honoring myself.


It doesn't mean that I choose to be hurt or abused.
It just means that I am committed to turning the other cheek
and asking for healing for myself and the person in question.


I truly believe that God is watching in one form or another.
At the end of my life I want to be able to 
sit with God and anyone else near by and feel proud of the decisions I made
when it comes to the treatment of life.
Nature, animals, humans... 
everything really.


Did I choose to honor life as often as possible?
Did I choose to find compassion when I could?
Did I remember to see myself in that person and choose a different way to perceive my world?
Did I choose to honor the creator of everything even when someone
else might be acting in an unkind way toward me???


If I never learned anything else in my life perhaps for me this is the most
incredible spiritual lesson of all.
Feeling challenged to do the right thing even in the face of those who do not.
Which way do I choose?
How do I honor peace within my heart and support peace within the world???
How have I honored my own learning by my actions?


Just for today ...
I will not anger
I will not worry
I will do my job honestly
I will be thankful for my many blessings
I will be kind to all living things....

Usui Sensei did not add
when I feel like it, only when I am not tired, only when other people are nice to me...
it isn't a sometimes thing
it's an everyday all the time thing...
and it is a reminder that I am certainly not perfect!!
 
 
Namaste!!!



Monday, May 6, 2013

Letting go

 One thing I have always used this blog for is to use my own personal
experiences to illustrate how to use Reiki and other techniques during challenging times.
That sweet puppy is Elijah.

Eli was a fantastic wonderful boy who I enjoyed very very much.
Eli was also ill and recently he went to doggy heaven,
I still catch myself trying to get home to let him out,
then I realize he is with God.
And
I know he is also with me.
 A very important pattern in my life is my ability to again and again make some really
tough decisions, to let go of people that are unable to  be
a positive influence in my life.


Setting boundaries for loved ones is not simple, it is not always cut and dry, and it is
truly the most incredible lesson in intimate self care that I have really ever experienced.
We all have loved and lost.


We have lived and even felt as though with the loss of loved ones that we have died a little.
Loss is one of the most meaningful character building experiences that a person can have.
We can be dragged down under the weight of it and drown in the pain,
or we can somehow make a choice to find a speck of light and focus on it.


Recently I began to feel shame regarding the many experiences I have had in my life that have 
ended in loss, loss of innocence, loss of identity, loss of strength, and due to some of those experiences
such confusion that I was really unable to understand or feel that I had the ability to choose.
I was a good girl and did what I was told, believed what I was told, and never questioned if I should listen.
I have not felt shame about my past in years.  
I have come to understandings that have led me to understand why some people do suffer life experiences
such as I have had,
and how successfully moving through them creates love, patience, and understanding for those
who have had similar experiences.
 I am completely humbled by the gift the Elijah has given me to once again
face reality and to choose the best and highest good for him and for me.
To feel certain it was the right thing to do.
Some people can not accept that somethings must be done,
some people would make different decisions,
that is OK too.
This short life Eli shared with me taught me so much about love and acceptance.
His departure from this dimension caused me to search for even deeper faith,
challenged my faith,
and allowed me to feel deep and hidden shame for the parts of my past that are yet unhealed.


How does this have anything to do with Reiki?
Again... for me everything has to do with Reiki.


With judgement, especially judgement from loved ones can come pain.
The confusing thing is that we make an error and think that the loved one is trying to hurt us.
Often we stay confused and hurt about it and never look deeper.
I have been practicing and learning from Reiki for 13 years now.
I have learned through daily application,
through persistence,
through self challenge that rarely is the surface thought the real issue.
Through allowing Eli to rest and through 
releasing people from my life and inviting others in
the past 3 months have really cut deeply into the other layers of
my psyche that were not ready to heal.


What I now know is that living the way someone else thinks I should is an error.
I have learned that the pattern of being a good girl still exists within me and deserves some healing attention.
I have learned that other people don't have to understand me, it's not a requirement.
I am re-learning that judgement is a form of abuse and I do not have to tolerate it in my life.
I have awakened to my own power... not as a mother, or a friend, or a lover
but simply as a human.
I have re-committed myself to Reiki, teaching, and learning.
I have re-committed to myself before anyone or anything else.
This is a fundamental and precious honor I do myself.
Reiki functions as the back bone and as the laser scalpel that slices deeply
into the very things that must be healed to be whole and to 
serve myself and my community.

It is with this deepest work that I truly honor
myself,
my partner,
my children,
my grandchildren,
my mother,
my ancestors,
my family,
my friends,
and
my loved ones in Spirit.
Being broken is the easy part,
finding courage to stand up to all the ghosts that made you feel broken
that's the true meaning of
Wholeness, strength, and fortitude.


Namaste!

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

I love finding random works of art that illustrate the energy that exists between people.

This specific picture could be two people talking
however, I'd prefer to believe they are having
a loving, long, lingering kiss.

One of the things that I love that I learned in my Tantric studies
is the act of eye gazing.
 
It doesn't sound like much.  Looking into someone's eyes, but if you have ever felt
love for another human and gazed with the softness of that
love into the eyes of your beloved
there is nothing that is more
intimate, complete, or honest.
 
Everyone has heard the saying the eyes are the gateway to the soul.
 
In Reiki we teach that you can "beam", essentially send Reiki using the eyes and a soft gaze
to open ourselves up to the flow of the energy.
The softness of the gaze is the trick.
 
Have you ever had someone just using their eyes come into your space
and make you feel uncomfortable?
So uncomfortable that you look away or perhaps change your body language,
or even leave the area?
The eyes and the intent behind them are quite powerful, and the person that
uses a direct stare to intimidate or cause harm may not understand all they are really communicating.
 
What a gift then to have at our disposal.
What a powerful talisman we have to communicate the deepest and most secret parts
of our love with our beloved, our life partner, our children.
 
I was recently gifted with an experience of sharing Reiki with my own beloved.
I have shared Reiki in the past with friends, family, clients, and lovers,
yet...
I have never been so humbled nor so blessed during a session.
 
I have the incredible opportunity to love a person that is in my eyes fearless.
A person that moves forward confidently and passionately.
A person that is probably the strongest and safest person I have ever met.
A person that I can't imagine ever living without.
 
I was given an incredible gift when I was given permission to give my own beloved Reiki.
The grace and ease with which the energy began to flow was heightened because of
my own loving and cherishing feelings toward my partner.  
There was an immediate opening within my own heart. 
There was an experience of  one-ness that I have only ever had
while sitting with trees in nature or gazing at the majesty of the ocean.
Selflessness, peace, comfort...
and more that can not be described by mere words and phrases.

It is moments like this with my Beloved that cause me to feel blessed and humbled,
that someone so honorable, honest, true, and incredible
sees past my quirks and my selfconsciousness...
sees past my own limiting thoughts about myself and gazes at me with the 
incredible silky softness of love from her incredibly deep and soulful eyes.
 
It is my one desire to everyday find a way to create
a special and meaningful moment of honestly and lovingly gazing
at the one person that makes me want to be a better more loving person.
It is my deepest desire to use everything I know
to create deeper and more loving moments every single day
in celebration of life and love between us.
 
Reiki unknowingly gave me more passion and more fire to study even more deeply
the connection between the lovers and how to use Reiki to heal
and deepen the bond between people that yearn for a once in a lifetime love.
Thank goodness,
I have been waiting my entire life!!
 
Reiki blessings!!!!