As if no one had ever touched her before...

Imagine if you can a brilliant love affair with beauty, sweetness, innocence, loyalty, and unyielding love. A relationship so pure of intention, so genuinely connected that it dwarfs any challenge in it's path. Now imagine that you are in that precious relationship... imagine if you can, allowing your divine goodness to shine in any relationship you have; unhindered by any pain, hurt, or frustration.





It seems that I have so many different directions to go with this months writing that I may just not know where to begin. Perhaps that is the best place to begin. It is so very easy these days to be pulled away from listening to our own intuition and connection to Spirit with the responsibilities that loom around the corner. The holidays and activities of daily living can require so much energy as we juggle the weight of our world and everyone else's too.
I have to say that Reiki is my blessing and my great teacher as October has been a month full of challenges and opportunities for growth. My daily practice of Reiki does give me a stable center to build my life and thoughts around. I will be forever grateful for that gift.





This month I wanted to make an offering to you. I am asking you to get a little out of your comfort zone and really choose to see yourself and your precious heart if you can. Whether you are a Reiki practitioner or not, doing mirror exercises can assist you in building intimacy and compassion for yourself.





Often we have more compassion for a stranger than we do for our own hearts. Your challenge if you wish to accept it is to get in front of a mirror. A mirror large enough that you can see yourself, that you can really notice yourself and all aspects about you. Your eyes, hair, your shape, your hands.... everything.





So often we want attention from our families and lovers, living our lives wishing to be seen, or at least feel as though we are being seen... that maybe someone actually cares about us. Wanting to feel special... yet our inner dialog often is set around how we are not measuring up to what we think we should be doing.





So get a chair and take some time to sit in front of a mirror. Place your lovely hands upon your heart and really breathe. Allow your lungs to fill fully with gorgeous fresh air and gaze into your own eyes. Really look at yourself. Pay attention to how you feel, what you like and dislike about yourself, and keep breathing. This is some of the most intimate work a person can do because you are actually giving yourself your hearts desire... YOU are consciously choosing to see yourself, to pay attention, and to make yourself very special for these private moments.





You are answering your own prayers with this exercise. While gazing into your own eyes say "I love you, I really love you... and I am happy you are here." and then imagine if you can, that no harm or pain had ever existed in your life. Imagine that the person you are gazing at has only ever been touched, loved, and cared for by love and peace. Feel your innocence fill you as a sense of wonder and peace. Then breathe deeply and take in the good feelings. Using a journal with this exercise can assist you in clearing out any negative thought patterns you may be having. Just keep repeating "I love you" and breathe in that precious feeling of truly being loved. You will be surprised how much more energy and patience you have when your own prayers are fully answered! As a Reiki practitioner you can use this exercise and add Reiki Beaming to it to deepen the healing process.



Have fun and let me know how it goes!

Reiki, loss, healing

The call came at 8:30 on a Tuesday night as I was en route to pick up one of my daughters from school. My other child had just attempted suicide and for all I knew she had succeeded. There was no thought in my mind for a moment, as I picked up my cell phone to dial a friend to go and check on her. It was erie really, not knowing if her last breath had been taken, not knowing if I would ever see her again; yet strangely as I drove my car to pick up my daughter, I felt calm. Knowing I could not be in two places at one time I surrendered her to God and to the highest and best good as I waited to pick up my child and head to the hospital.

There were few moments of panic or confusion, there was simply a profound quiet within me, I remember being impatient to reach the hospital; yet I continued to breathe... I continued to just notice that I had not become hysterical and I really was waiting for the time that I would breakdown, become crazy, grieve, be angry, scream, or even cry, but that time never came. I kept expecting myself to bring Reiki to the table... to be the Reiki Master and take over the energy of the space uplifting and transmuting all of it. Instead I just waited, watched, and kept breathing.


The nurses and hospital techs came in to check on my daughter who was suffering from an over dose of common house hold medications. Tylenol, midol, benadryl, ibuprofen... Hours passed and I felt the pull of my older daughter who had chosen to leave the hospital, yet I stayed waiting, for word on my youngest daughter's condition and what was happening to her internal organs. That time finally came and I was told that they would have to admit her because her toxic levels were too high.


She spent 40 more hours on the antidote for tylenol. That was the time I broke down, the only time that the tear really broke the surface that first night. When it was clear that she had truly damaged herself, I felt the fear of the possibilities of organ damage and a lifetime of treatments. This time her act almost extinguished her beautiful life. I still wondered about Reiki, offering it to her, to the hospital, to the staff... yet I just sat there watching her vomit over and over and over again. After 2 1/2 hours of vomiting, at 3 in the morning I left, I knew she was in good hands and I needed some rest.




Mothers can be fierce when their children are in danger. Fierce when someone or something attemtps to come between them and their children, and here I was understanding that there is no fighting that I could do to take away the kind of inner pain that someone must feel to attempt to take their own lives. How could I protect her from herself?



Where was my Reiki? Why wasn't I actively using this wonderful tool that I have come to rely on so deeply?



I have realized through this opportunity for growth, that it was my daily Reiki practice that I have honed over the years, that had stored enough energy to move me through this process. I realized that through a daily practice of Reiki I had learned to allow and to truly submit to what was happening around me. I could surrender to the thought of the loss of my child and also to the possibility that she would choose to stay here on this planet and choose to heal. I let go of my expectations and gave over to her process, her pain, and her desire for wanting better for herself. After all, she was the only one that could make a difference for her.



Reiki was not really far from me that night... it was within me, strengthening me, and helping me to allow others to assist me in my process, so I was available to be there for my daughter. Some people were just there for me, helping me remember to eat, offering a shoulder if I needed it and I am thankful for that.



Growth is not always a beautiful simple process, sometimes true growth and forging of your soul is done when the fires are at their hottest.





In a beautiful way Reiki assisted me in finding the higher aspects of such a stressful and turbid situation. I am ever thankful for all of you, Reiki, and my life!

Finding gratitude within

I love Autumn. For years this time of the year always found me excited about Halloween and pumkins, carving them, eating the candy, and the Friends Together Halloween camp was always a favorite. Then there is Thanksgiving and Turkey and lots of cooking, all the while gearing up for the winter holidays... As the subtle changes in Florida take place with each season change, we really must go within to mark these changes of season. Here in Florida we have less outward appearances that the seasons have changed, yet if we listen carefully to our bodies we may notice a change in sleep patterns, a slowing down of the body and mind, a feeling of contemplation may begin to settle over us, and we may even notice a change in the outward focus of our relationships. For some even food preferences begin to shift.

Our society does not often teach us to pay attention to the wisdom of the body and apply it to our lives, yet I always feel better when I heed the internal clock and choose to listen intently. A daily practice of focussed Self Healing can turn this season change into your own spiritual retreat if you allow yourself to open the door to even greater awareness.

Expanding GRATITUDE can be very easy. We can easily look around our environment and see the people and things that we "have". We can have gratitude for our job, our lovers, our children, our friends. We can have gratitude for our homes, cars, boats, campers, even our furniture; I particularly love my bed! We can be thankful for our bank accounts, thankful for our animals, thankful for the world we live in... all of these things are wonderful and necessary in most of our lives. AND if you have been listening perhaps your heart has whispered to you as you have been reading these words that these things are external.

Many people stop at what they can see and forget to have gratitude for themselves in deeply profound and spiritual ways. What about being thankful for your strength of character or for your innate and fundamental ability to overcome tragedy? Can you allow yourself to even be thankful for the tragedy, for what you have learned from it, for how it has assisted you in becoming more truly YOU? When was the last time you stopped and became thankful for the absolute radiant light that your creator placed into every cell of your body, or your incredibly fascinating DNA that was hard coded to bring you through your life a better, deeper, more emotionally sound and balanced soul than when you started your Earthly journey?

This is a perfect time of year to take the spiritual practice of Gratitude within and create a deep inner communication with the exquisite beauty that lives within you... through this kind of daily practice you will begin to uncover things you never understood about yourself, depths of love and peace that have always been within you, that you never knew you could experience. It is time for us all to seek to know ourselves more intimately so that we can be in our world in a more certain, balanced, and positive manner. When we are truly grateful for who we are and what we stand for we can affect our world with even greater love.

Take 10 minutes a day and be grateful for your light, your peace, your inner strength, and the incredible love that was placed in your heart when you were first created... expand your view of yourself; and your world will expand and reach to meet you with even more joy, peace, and deeper levels of love than you ever knew possible.

Here is to you!