Monday, November 22, 2010

Our Agreements

Agreements are the things we make daily with ourselves, our families, our co-workers, and society. They are the unconscious voices inside our minds and sometimes inside our very hearts that help us to function in the world.

As lightworkers the agreements that we make often define who we think we are in the world. Making an agreement to heal the world is a large endeavor!

Some of us are aware of the agreements that we have made regarding healing our community, and yet a larger part of us are not aware of the conscious agreements we have made; and even more important may be the subconscious agreements we make without even a clue of what we are doing or why.

This is the time of the year that heralds the harvesting of our past year's endeavors. It is also the time of the year that is most ripe for us to look at the things that are not working in our lives and evaluate anything that is draining us of precious time and energy.

As the Winter months approach it is a time for self reflection and going deeply inside ourselves to prepare for the next cycle. Many times in the hustle and bustle of daily life these natural flows are not noticed or celebrated, yet they remain important to us all in learning to manage ourselves and our agreements.

Questions to ask yourself are:
Are my agreements to people in my life more important than my agreements to myself?
Are the agreements that I uphold as a global light worker for my community balanced with my own personal self care?
Do I feel drained after I have said YES to an activity to help others?
Do I have a daily self care program in place and do I follow it no matter what is happening in my life?

If you are feeling drained, taken advantage of, or as if there is not enough time to get things done for other people and you consistently place yourself on the back burner; you may be dealing with some agreements and self expactations that could be altered just a tiny bit to support your life and your healing work. We don't want to throw out the baby with the bath water... we just want to find the path of least resistance when searching for a balance in our healing and lightworking activities and our own personal health.

Good Luck!

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Growing and loving it!

It sure does seem that life has hit hyperactive speed as the changes in my life pass in front of me. Last year at this time I had finally made a firm choice regarding relocating to Lakeland, it seems like eons have passed since that time.

Incredibly I am on my way to becoming a house owner, something I never really believed I would do. I left the only job I ever really liked to go to everyday due to the relocation, and I loved my job mostly because of the incredible co-workers I had, and today I am on the precipuce of starting a completely different job doing something I have never done before.

This year I have seen both my children graduate highschool and take college classes. I have lost a lover and a dog. I have stepped away from numerous friendships that became toxic to me. I have been told that according to my blood work I have anemia, tachycardia for which I have started medication, and most recently my blood work ruled out lupus and rheumatoid arthritis, therefore fibromyalgia is on the table. I have also lived through loved ones suicide attempts and mental illness. I have cried harder, stretched further than ever out of my comfort zone than I ever have in my entire life. (Up until now you would have thought I had been through enough). I have stepped away from my office and really held back from working my business due to personal and family trauma. I have seen Reiki Masters made, and succeed beyond mine and their own wildest expectations.

I have said NO to people that I never thought I would, and I have said YES to special people that I never truly understood.

More than any of this, what has become so evident to me is the hand of God upon my life. Never before has God showed up for me in such a 3rd dimensional life altering way, at least not when I have been this grounded and conscious of it.

I have traversed the waters of Blue Springs with my family splashing about in the healing waters. I have seen cassadaga with a very special person and even shared a hot fudge Sunday. I have been witness to the healing of the Gulf with Dr Emoto and my sweet and brilliant friend Kumari. I have been invited to spend time with wonderful friends that make a kick butt margarita! I have spent time in the aquarium and whole foods in Tampa (woohoo!) I have attended one day retreats and 4 day seminars. I have a great new friend in my dog Eli and his new brother Malakai. I wake up daily to the sunrise on the lake behind my home. I dream of meditation gardens and jasmine to be planted in my yard. I welcome this new job and all it offers me.

With all of the loss and turbulence that has been so center in my life since 2007, as I look back I wonder how I stayed put together, how I continued to raise my girls, how I kept myself sane.

The answer of course is God, my devotion to my calling of being a teacher, the beloveds that have entered my life, and my devoted Reiki practice. My life is truly blessed and my only wish is to live it in the way that anyone watching can feel that blessing and take some for themselves.
That is all any of us can really offer. That someone else is uplifted in our presence without even uttering a single word. That is truly a God Touched life!