What is the truth?

One of the buddhist beliefs is to remain un-attached to anything... a teacher, a job, a partner, a home, a thought, etc

It is one of the most incredible things to see or experience the way a buddhist monk painstakingly works for hours to create intricate and beautiful mandalas made of colored sand, then in the end to sweep it away like nothing special at all.

In some ways it feels as though the years and incredible focus that I have put toward my research, my active healing work with people, my personal healing work with myself, the identities of mother, nurse, therapist, intuitive, partner, lover, and teacher are like the sand that a buddhist monk with a generous and compassionate heart; creates beauty and intensity in a mandala with. And just like the incredible art of mandala creation, the hand of the Great Spirit is sweeping through the colors and facets of my life asking me to lose my attachment to everything that is less than reality.

And my Ego is being swept away.





These days the moment I attempt to identify and define myself I find everything in my life re-organizing to show me the folly of the thought "this is me".


My human-self wants to believe that I matter because I can.... (fill in the blank.)
My ego wants me to believe that the confusion and the discomfort that I am feeling as I question my attachment is actually pain and certain death.
Which lets me know I am most certainly on the "right" track.


The seeds that Spirit and I have planted within me will not grow and flourish with garbage and stones blocking the growth. Everything I have thought I am, everything that I am, everything that I will be exists always... Everything I teach myself and call reality is like garbage and stones blocking the light of the sun, truth has never existed out side me and I honestly believe that is the teaching that Spirit offers me these days.



Whatever tool we choose to work on ourselves with, at it's core; is something that was created to remove the lies and fallicy of life and outdated belief systems handed down generation to generation. For me Reiki, hypnosis, past life regression, Spirit Release Therapy, chanting, meditating, yoga, Qi Gong, art, aromatherapy; give me really powerful tools to remove the veils that hold me from the truth that Spirit whispers to us all each and every day.

"Everything is as it should be, there is no separation"


Just as this whale dives deeper into the waters, I too find the need to dive deep within my subconscious to find the obstacles that I place in my own way. To find the very things that keep me feeling small and separate. Thank goodness like this whale and it's family pod, I am not alone, I am supported not only by Spirit and family, but by the incredible work that others who have gone before me have done. In the end there is no separation and that is incredibly soothing during the lesson of non-attachment!

Our Agreements

Agreements are the things we make daily with ourselves, our families, our co-workers, and society. They are the unconscious voices inside our minds and sometimes inside our very hearts that help us to function in the world.

As lightworkers the agreements that we make often define who we think we are in the world. Making an agreement to heal the world is a large endeavor!

Some of us are aware of the agreements that we have made regarding healing our community, and yet a larger part of us are not aware of the conscious agreements we have made; and even more important may be the subconscious agreements we make without even a clue of what we are doing or why.

This is the time of the year that heralds the harvesting of our past year's endeavors. It is also the time of the year that is most ripe for us to look at the things that are not working in our lives and evaluate anything that is draining us of precious time and energy.

As the Winter months approach it is a time for self reflection and going deeply inside ourselves to prepare for the next cycle. Many times in the hustle and bustle of daily life these natural flows are not noticed or celebrated, yet they remain important to us all in learning to manage ourselves and our agreements.

Questions to ask yourself are:
Are my agreements to people in my life more important than my agreements to myself?
Are the agreements that I uphold as a global light worker for my community balanced with my own personal self care?
Do I feel drained after I have said YES to an activity to help others?
Do I have a daily self care program in place and do I follow it no matter what is happening in my life?

If you are feeling drained, taken advantage of, or as if there is not enough time to get things done for other people and you consistently place yourself on the back burner; you may be dealing with some agreements and self expactations that could be altered just a tiny bit to support your life and your healing work. We don't want to throw out the baby with the bath water... we just want to find the path of least resistance when searching for a balance in our healing and lightworking activities and our own personal health.

Good Luck!

Growing and loving it!

It sure does seem that life has hit hyperactive speed as the changes in my life pass in front of me. Last year at this time I had finally made a firm choice regarding relocating to Lakeland, it seems like eons have passed since that time.


Incredibly I am on my way to becoming a house owner, something I never really believed I would do. I left the only job I ever really liked to go to everyday due to the relocation, and I loved my job mostly because of the incredible co-workers I had, and today I am on the precipuce of starting a completely different job doing something I have never done before.


This year I have seen both my children graduate highschool and take college classes. I have lost a lover and a dog. I have stepped away from numerous friendships that became toxic to me. I have been told that according to my blood work I have anemia, tachycardia for which I have started medication, and most recently my blood work ruled out lupus and rheumatoid arthritis, therefore fibromyalgia is on the table. I have also lived through loved ones suicide attempts and mental illness. I have cried harder, stretched further than ever out of my comfort zone than I ever have in my entire life. (Up until now you would have thought I had been through enough). I have stepped away from my office and really held back from working my business due to personal and family trauma. I have seen Reiki Masters made, and succeed beyond mine and their own wildest expectations.


I have said NO to people that I never thought I would, and I have said YES to special people that I never truly understood.


More than any of this, what has become so evident to me is the hand of God upon my life. Never before has God showed up for me in such a 3rd dimensional life altering way, at least not when I have been this grounded and conscious of it.


I have traversed the waters of Blue Springs with my family splashing about in the healing waters. I have seen cassadaga with a very special person and even shared a hot fudge Sunday. I have been witness to the healing of the Gulf with Dr Emoto and my sweet and brilliant friend Kumari. I have been invited to spend time with wonderful friends that make a kick butt margarita! I have spent time in the aquarium and whole foods in Tampa (woohoo!) I have attended one day retreats and 4 day seminars. I have a great new friend in my dog Eli and his new brother Malakai. I wake up daily to the sunrise on the lake behind my home. I dream of meditation gardens and jasmine to be planted in my yard. I welcome this new job and all it offers me.


With all of the loss and turbulence that has been so center in my life since 2007, as I look back I wonder how I stayed put together, how I continued to raise my girls, how I kept myself sane.


The answer of course is God, my devotion to my calling of being a teacher, the beloveds that have entered my life, and my devoted Reiki practice. My life is truly blessed and my only wish is to live it in the way that anyone watching can feel that blessing and take some for themselves.
That is all any of us can really offer. That someone else is uplifted in our presence without even uttering a single word. That is truly a God Touched life!